Day 24
Wednesday 2/25/2015 Day 24 Its been 11 days since my last post. I was good till Friday day 19 Friday 2/20. A crazy day. We went upstate for 4 days starting Friday, left early around 9:30am on sched... »
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Saturday 2/14/2015 Day 13 Valentines Day Happy Valentines Day. Woke up a little late today, I took some nasal medication last night and so I think it knocked me out. Worked most of the day. Tina g... »
When people ask how can I get someone to help themselves I have to say, god himself can not change us until we allow it. I'm grateful today that I made the decision to accept gods grace with a second chance in life.
I realy want to get sober I'm 29 years old I put together 18 months 4 years ago I know I can do it agen please help me it's fucking up my life
In 3 months time I've lost 3 friends to overdose. I just wanna join them. I love my family butt wanna drink to forget the world
I attended my first AA meeting tonight. It was just like in the movies. Me and 20 or so individuals meeting together to form a circle of solidarity in a church on a cold and damp winters evening. Looking at the lived in faces of the young and old, my desire to leave immediately was very real. But I didn't. I signed in, grabbed some literature, sat down and listened. I couldn't understand much of what the chairperson was saying in the beginning (mumble mumble) and the first couple of sharers were the expected down and out, rock bottom horror stories, which I cannot relate to. But 2 stories struck a cord with me tonight, and the way they spoke gave me strength. I was really hoping I wouldn't be ask to share on my first meeting, but I was. I felt awkward admitting I was an alcoholic on introduction. But after my brief 5 minute share I felt great, relieved, I said it. At the end of the meeting I was approached by many, congratulated and offered support. I will be back, every Wednesday. I honestly feel I'm finally on the road to recovery. One day at a time, just one day.
What are some of your favorite sayings that you've heard in the room?
One of mine"If you don't go to meetings,you can't find out what happened to those that stop going".
Nothing external will ever make us feel Joy. True Joy comes form within. Once we suffer long enough and hit bottom from fruitless pursuit in external things we go within. There we find God in our hearts. We realize the sun was always shining behind the clouds. The clouds are the ego and thoughts or error and illusion. Enlightenment is not a condition it is a recognition of what already exists but was obscured by the clouds of the egos mentations, positionalities and false beliefs. We don't need to be slave to our programs . We surrender all to God and ask for His direction.
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heebeha wrote a new post, Day 24 2 years, 4 months ago
Wednesday 2/25/2015 Day 24
Its been 11 days since my last post. I was good till Friday day 19 Friday 2/20. A crazy day. We went upstate for 4 days starting Friday, left early around 9:30am on schedule. 2.5 […]
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heebeha wrote a new post, Day 13 – Valentines Day 2 years, 4 months ago
Saturday 2/14/2015 Day 13 Valentines Day
Happy Valentines Day. Woke up a little late today, I took some nasal medication last night and so I think it knocked me out. Worked most of the day. Tina got us […]
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